Fluttering Feelings Author, Ssamba, Has Cancer : manga

I don’t know if a lot of people read this webtoon, but for those who do and don’t know about this yet..

Her blog post: http://blog.naver.com/ssambasoul/220735454432

Translation: http://halmoniswag.tumblr.com/post/146083457812/ssambas-latest-blog-post

Hello. This is Ssamba. It feels like it’s been so long since I last greeted everyone on my blog. Various things have happened to me since we last spoke. I’m not quite sure where I should start, what I should say, or how I should say it… So I’ll just keep it plain and simple. I had some surgery done a while ago, and I am currently waiting to receive chemotherapy. I used to think “All surgeries are important– there’s no such thing as a ‘big’ or ‘small’ surgery,” But in my case, all I can say is that it was a pretty serious surgery. Because my body isn’t in the best condition right now, the doctors are waiting to see when I can undergo chemo. I’m truly sorry to those who have shown so much love towards my manhwa, but I’m not sure if I will be able to start publishing it again. Because the cancer has spread to my peritoneum, they told me that what I had was not completely curable, so I’m not sure what will happen. This whole matter has taken a toll on me mentally and physically, so I’ll think about Count Ha Jeong-woo’s (from “The Lady”) opium or smoking two cigarettes, several times a day. (I saw the movie “The Lady” a few days ago. It was interesting to sit next to a bunch of healthy-looking audience members, all by myself. It was some calming black comedy for me. I did overexert myself a bit, but it was refreshing. It really was a good change of pace. Although I didn’t eat much, I didn’t throw up my dinner that night either. )

I’m not sure if I will be able to draw FF again. I’m a boring, quiet person. To think that I was able to draw FF is still a miracle that I can’t believe. I received a lot of things because of FF. A lot of people came to like the manhwa that I drew, I was able to meet a lot of great people, and those were all very exciting experiences for me. Those memories are very precious to me as well. Only heaven knows what will happen to me in the future. Sometimes, I think that this may all have been a dream, because it’s so hard to believe. But the more I think that, the more troubled I feel. Because I cannot confirm anything, I will be letting go of everything. Right now, the only thing I can say to everyone is that I’m sorry. The main reason why I’m here, writing these words, is for those who have been waiting for FF, and for myself. I hope that everyone, and myself, will feel somewhat at rest. So although my message may not have been in great detail, I wanted to deliver it, no more, no less. Because I want to lay down what I have to lay down, and take what I want to take without hesitation. If it’s possible, I wish to meet everyone somehow, regardless of how small or trifling our means of contact may be.

I want to finish FF someday. And I want to draw a few other stories that I have in mind. To be honest, those are the only thoughts I can think of right now. “I can’t just never draw a Seol-a and No-rae kiss scene…!” Yes. You heard me. I’m very sorry everyone, but I’m also thankful. We will all certainly meet again. Take care!

In the midst of writing this post, I will also upload two unreleased FF illustrations. I wanted to finish both pieces before I uploaded them, but who cares if I put them up a little early?

I hope you guys have a great day. ^

The person on that tumblr also posted something about how to give ssamba a message through naver here: http://halmoniswag.tumblr.com/post/146092242457/how-to-send-messages-to-ssamba-on-naver